And since I can’t have you
The way I wanted to
Even though I didn’t want to
Or I didn’t think I could
I will write about you.
I will continue to write about you
Until the vision I had comes true.
Or until I turn blue
Lost in the arms of someone else
Singing if wanting you is bad
Then I don’t want to be right.
Cause I was using what was beating in my left
Only to be left.
With painted pictures
And biased syrup
That ate my heart out
To distance myself.
I should’ve ran that mile that my intuition led
but in my strong independence
I fell weak like prey sheep
To an ideal that didn’t make sense to me
Misery sure loves company.
I will pay for this with the tears that escape into my pillow at night
And the smiles I wear in the day time to make everyone else feel alright
And I will say that I don’t give a fuck
But I did
I still do
And maybe two could be a few more
And you could’ve enlightened me
In the way you looked for me to enlighten you
Cause we were never two looking for
Another to complete
And the respect is lost
And the time is lost
And the drink that i shot for us is lost
And I wont drink again to us
Until there is an us to drink to
Isn’t it funny how easy it is to lose yourself in the tide…
I must not have a strong anchor,
Or the storm really did tip me over.
I cried for home.
But what good would the salt air be
If you weren’t there to
Dip your toes into the sand alongside me.
But I said I don’t love you.
And yet this connection is so true.
Maybe its still not love.
Yeah I fucked up.
I take that on
I take that in
I will move on from that fact eventually.